~Friends with Benefits~

It seems that throughout my whole entire life there have been people who have befriended me just to become...friends with benefits, if you will.  I'm not trying to brag when I say this, but I am a smart person with a really high I.Q.  This caused a lot of people to try to use my brains for their own purposes during my school career.  It got really annoying due to the fact that I was always asked to "help" people with tests, exams, quizzes, and homework.  I thought that after I left high school it would end.  Unfortunately, it is still happening to me.

So I'm pretty giving when it comes to basically...everything.  Back in January I got fired from my job at Wawa, but I went on unemployement and I had some, SOME, money during my times I was unemployed.  I hung out with friends quite often and one friend in particular, who will not be named (nor will anyone else),  would always charge me $20-$30 to hang.  *Insert name* claimed it was for gas money, but when your car gets over 20mpg and I only live maybe 60 miles away or so....um I should only pay $10 at most.  If you want to go hang out with someone and take me with you, don't want to have to pay for that gas.  It seriously seemed that *insert name* just hung out with me to get "gas money", *insert gender pronoun* and I are still friends though...to a degree, but that's not related to the money thing.

Now, and for a while, I've had friends who've used me because I always get the latest music.  I love getting cds and singles from bands that I truly love.  Back in high school, I spent tons of money on a friend who'd want entire discographies by musicians and bands, not that I minded because we listened to a lot of the same music.  It was just kind of annoying at times.  

Now one person who I thought was a really good friend, seems to only want to get music out of me.  I mean we talk about other things like cosplay, video games and other stuff....but it seems like lately *insert name*'s just talking to me about the music.  And a while ago *insert gender pronoun* blew up and the message I got was:  It's okay if you give me music, but I can't let anyone know YOU're the one sharing with me.  *Insert name* said that they would probably get in trouble, or like shunned, if anyone found out, and that it would affect *insert gender pronoun* career.  :(  I know to this person it probably doesn't seem this way, but to me it just feels as though I'm just...a friend with benefits.  

~Tenten's Revival~

So...I realized I had one of these, only because when I tried to make one it told me I already had one.  xD  It's amazing how much things have changed since I last logged in.  I don't know where to begin...So I'll just tell you about myself.

My name is Michelle, but everyone calls me Tenten.  I'm 19 years old and...I'm a female if you couldn't tell.  xD  I use the xD smile a lot... ^_^  So um I'm a self-described weirdo j-rock and anime fanatic.  Oh and I forgot K-pop.  Seriously....I love K-Pop, especially SHINee.  :3  I'm also a raver and cosplayer.  

My cosplay list isn't all the extensive, but hopefully since I finally got a sewing machine I can change that.  I've cosplayed Misa Amane, Murata Ken (my first and so far only crossplay) and misty.  I also have a school girl outfit that I wear almost every anime convention I go to.  I've been told that I looked like Hell Girl though.....but anyways my next cosplay that I'm working on is either going to be a pikachu cosplay or an OC Yu-gi-oh duelist. 

Um J-rock and K-pop talking time!~  I got into J-rock a while ago, back in early 2002.  My first band that I got into was The GazettE, I got into them after their first PV, Wakaremichi, was released.  I fell IN LOVE with them.  I, honestly, liked the song...I wasn't in love with it though.  The first j-rock song I really fell in love with was "Beast of Blood" by Malice Mizer.  Soon, after and through my discovery of Malice Mizer, I found Gackt.  The first song I heard by him was Vanilla.  Soon after Gackt my love for J-rock and Visual Kei exploded and I became the obsessed fangirl I am today.  

K-pop was a whole other journey for me.  I discovered K-pop because of the IVY and Sonata of Temptation video and advent children.  I wasn't that interested in the song and forgot about it.  In 2008 though, I found this video of Replay by SHINee.  It was actually shortly after they released it, I seem to find bands as they start xD,  (OMG OMG REPLAY JUST STARTED PLAYING) .  Not gonna lie, the PV kind of was weird to me and the whole poppy thing was...different.  I had been into J-pop a while back but I left that and focused on J-rock.  The song, Replay, was catchy though...and for some reason it really made me want to dance.  I started to look into more K-pop bands and discovered Rain, Brown Eyed Girls, and Super Junior.  From there it just become more and more of an obsession for me and the catchy poppy dance music makes me happy.

I attend anime conventions.  Normally I attended Nekocon every year since year 6...this year coming up is year 13.  I was AAAAAT year 5, but I wasn't an actual con attendee because I didn't have a badge.  This year will be my first year going to a different con, Anime Usa being held in November.  I'm very excited about this because I'll be able to hang out with my new friends, more on that later.  My favorite part about anime conventions is the energy of it all.  The instant you step in the con, you know exactly where you are and you can feel the brotherhood that everyone has for each other.  We're all there because we love anime, raving, or sometimes because cons are a great place to get j-rock.  :3  A lot of people attend a con year after year so it's a place to meet and hang out with your friends from last year.  Now onto the new friends section.

While I was cons, I always heard about the drama so I never really stayed friends with the congoers, except at cons.  Like I never added them to my facebook or myspace, except one person...she goes by Shiro.  I met her at Neko '08 and she seriously made such a memorable impression on me that I had to add her!  I wish I could have added her little sister who I met at the GPKISM concert that year....back on topic.  At Neko '09 I met a few people who I decided were worth the possible drama.  Their names are Aimee and Eve.  I hung out with both of them for a little while at nekocon and they both made me really happy.  :)  Through Aimee and Eve I made more friends in the con/rave world.  Some of these friends make me sad that I never made friends in the con world, because they are simply amazing.  :D  Some of these people are Ryo, Thomas, Connor, Bethani, and Ryuu.  Most of these people, if not all O_o, are going to be at AUSA so I'm very excited that I get to hang out with them.  Although since I've branched out I've dealt with several drama freaks >_<>

Ummm yeah I'm done typing now.  O__O  I typed a lot here.  If you want to know anything else about me, let me know in the comments.

S/N:  I LOVE ANDY SOUTH FROM PROJECT RUNWAY.  I just wanna hug him!